The fruit of time


I find a bowl of fruit on a stand by the door, which brims with lanzones, guyabano, atis, apples, mangoes and oranges. I toy with the idea of gobbling up as much of them as my capacity would allow, taking comfort in what Mark tells us Jesus had said to his disciples, “Don’t you understand that whatever goes into a person from outside cannot defile him? For it does not enter his heart but his stomach, and then goes out into the sewer.” And Jesus added, “What comes out of a person defiles him. For from within, out of the human heart, come evil ideas, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, evil, deceit, debauchery, envy, slander, pride, and folly. All these evils come from within and defile a person.”

To this I find a parallel in William Blake’s poem, “A Poison Tree.” Here Blake talks about the poison that the sneaky heart concocts in secret.

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
The wrath a person harbors in his heart gets a metaphor in the apple tree, which he nurtures with the fear and anguish brought about by the burden of hatred on his soul.
And I watered it in fears,
Night and morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.
The word “deceitful” gives us a key to this stanza. Despite his tortured spirit, the man continues to appear and behave with civility to the object of his hatred, who does not suspect malice behind the graciousness.
And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright;
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine.
In the end, because treachery lurks behind the apparent good nature displayed by the secretly angry man, the object of his anger in effect finds himself stabbed in the back.
And into my garden stole,
When the night had veiled the pole:
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

The faithless heart offers a bowl of fruit different from that on the table. This fruit comes out of the heart, rather than enters the mouth, of a person, and defiles him or her. Of this, Jesus gave us a generic, non-exhaustive list: evil ideas, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, evil, deceit, debauchery, envy, slander, pride, folly.

At times I watch the school children during recess rushing out of the gate towards the boiled bananas and the other snacks. I know that the years would bring them knowledge of food other than that laid out by the vendors, fruit that they themselves would produce instead of eat. Time would give them the choice of yield – whether wholesome or poisonous.

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