Maine Mendoza and Alden Richards
PHENOMENAL star Maine Mendoza turned to writing to express her feelings and thoughts about her more than two-year journey in showbiz, revealing her real status with love team partner Alden Richards and how much she longs for freedom to be who she is.
In a new blog titled, “An Open Letter To Our Fans” the Dubsmash Queen started with: “Hi! You might be wondering what this letter is about. Ako din, I am wondering what this letter going to be about. I do not actually know how to start writing this letter and I do not actually know either if it is right to do this. All I know is for sure is I need to let some things out of my chest. And I couldn’t find any other way to do it so I am writing here on my blog, like I used to,” she started her blog.
Mendoza said that she is aware that after reading her blog, majority of her fans will turn their backs on her or hate her.
She expressed gratitude to everyone who gave their love, support and sacrifice for her and Richards ever since their love team was formed in “Eat Bulaga” in July 2015.
“When I was new in the business, you all came to my life and loved me for exactly the way I am. Hindi ko kailangan magpanggap para mahalin niyo. At nagpapasalamat ako dahil tinanggap at minahal niyo kung sino at ano ako bilang tao,” she continued her blog.
She also revealed that she was amazed and overwhelmed by the attention she was getting back then “… when everyone was taking things lightly and we were all just happy. Do you still remember the good old days? Back when things are not so complicated? Still worth remembering up to this time.”
But two years after, Mendoza observed that a lot of things have changed but there are also those that have remained the same.
“Masaya pa din kayo. I can see how happy you guys are all together. Iba ‘yung saya niyo tuwing magkakasama kayo. Masasabi kong ibang klase yung pagkakaibigan at samahan na nabuo sa pagsuporta niyo samin,” she explained, saying how much AlDub Nation has helped other people too.
In the latter part of the blog, she said she wanted to be honest to everyone.
“I am at this point where I feel like I live in a box. I have not been able to do what I want and say what I feel because everytime I try to express my thoughts and feelings, some of you tend to misapprehend and invalidate in so many ways,” she explained.
“Telling me I am not supposed to feel that way because I am “rich and famous.” Telling me I have no right to be sad and hurt because I have everything a person could ask for. Judging, blaming, and getting mad at me for expressing what I truly feel just because you do not agree and it is inconvenient for you. Dictating me what I should feel and should not feel. Ang hirap,” she said.
She also tells her supporters not to get her wrong. She is grateful for what she has but it has come to a point that she is no longer happy.
“Dumating ‘yung araw na parang hindi na ako masaya. Na kahit sandamakmak ang biyaya ang natatanggap ko, nawala na yung ligaya sa puso ko. Hindi ko na makita yung tuwa sa mga ngiti ko at kinang sa mga mata ko. Hanggang sa napatanto ko na iyon pala ay dahil sa ilang tao na nakapaligid sakin. Yung mga tao na akala ko ay tunay na nagmamalasakit at nagmamahal sa akin. Mahirap. Nahihirapan akong dinidiktahan ng mga
dapat kong gawin at nararamdaman,” she added.
She also lamented that people close to her—family, friends, workmates—are being bashed or insulted by some fans.
Mendoza said that much as she appreciates the love and support fans give to her and Richards, she wants to be honest about the status of their relationship.
“You deserve to know the truth that at this very moment Alden and I are just friends. We are a love team,” she said.
She again thanked her fans for the love and support.
“I will forever cherish the presence of the whole fandom in my life. I do hope I have also given you enough joy for you to give me the freedom I believe I deserve. Freedom to feel what I want to feel, be what I want to be, and do what I want to do. Alden deserves the same, too,” Mendoza said.
